Me!(:

2009-04-04T14:22:00.003+08:00

Everything's ~~changing~~ CHANGED.

School, Interact, JTS, Home, Msn, Hj, Sleep.
My Friday in 7 words. Wish I could add in one more.
But I cannot bring myself to believe in self-denial.

Your love is a cheap no frills plaster that falls off fast when I get all wet.
Works for a while, until I get into more sh*t.

2009-04-04T00:28:00.002+08:00

threesixsix.

Wish I could do that to you. But violence isn't an option. Maybe silence is, to you that is.
I wish I(we) had more time and more chances.

Your love is a cryptic code too complicated for me to decipher.
Your love is a silence too deafening for me to hear.

2009-04-01T22:44:00.001+08:00

You better have a mighty good reason.
Else it won't be long before I give up.

2009-03-29T22:17:00.007+08:00

please don't leave me. D:

and please don't treat me like you're going to be forever mine .
cool video nonetheless.

I love my best friend. I love how I know she'll always be there for me, no matter how much of a mess, a wreck, and a complete failure I may be.

2009-03-28T14:43:00.004+08:00

This must be what absence feels like.

ABSENCE
–noun
1.
state of being away or not being present
2.
period of being away: an absence of several weeks.
3.
failure to attend or appear when expected.
4.
lack; deficiency: the absence of proof.
5.
inattentiveness; preoccupation; absent-mindedness: absence of mind.

And because hopefully, I am different from all the others.
And because I want to be different.

I'm addicted to talking on the phone and that is pretty scary. I don't know why but talking to people on the phone can really give me a sense of happiness and it even kind of acts as a stress-reliever. If you've heard me enough, you would have known I have been sighing like Eeyore ever since Monday and I think my reasons for doing so have varied from day to day, or even week to week.

Not finding the right words to say, the right actions to do, isn't a good excuse right?

Absence doth sharpen love,
presence strengthens it;
the one brings fuel,
the other blows it till it burns clear.
-William Shakespeare.

when sometimes all I want is a big big beary hug. :/

2009-03-22T19:39:00.004+08:00

360degrees, 1degree for every post.

Just wanna say it has been an emotionally trying week. Especially when it was coming towards the end of the week. Thankfully I have friends who pull me back from the brink of madness else I would never know how or where to vent all my emotions. :/

On a super bright side, maybe now I have found the reason to look forward to weekends.
The beauty of conversations.
Latenightcalls always and forever.
Yes, I am a self-proclaimed latenightcall addict.

2009-03-21T16:51:00.005+08:00

David Archuleta - Barriers

Well, I don't know how to say this right
And the words got me chokin'
I keep hittin' this wall
It's never gonna fall
And we're still broken
This mountain we've been trying to climb
It's never ending
Just can't do nothing
Gotta do something
'Cause if we don't open up our eyes
We're just pretending

Well, there's a time for givin' up
Didn't want to have to say it
All we doin' is building walls
And now there's too many barriers

Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lie
Too many barriers
Ohhh
Just too many barriers

Now we've been draggin' this whole thing out
But I can't wait any longer
Our love's burning down
Creepin' in the doubt
We're not getting any stronger
I hear you say that we're doin' OK
But, baby, I don't think so
Just can't do nothin', gotta do something
'Cause if I don't get into my car I won't go very far.

Well there's a time for giving up
Didn't want to have to say it
All we're doing is building walls
Now there's too many barriers
Ohhhh

Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lies
Too many barriers
Too many barriers

Just too many barriers
That we keep running into
Been tryin', but we just can't break through
I know I'm gonna keep wishing I was with you
But we just gotta stop

Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lies
Too many barriers
Just too many barriers

In your hurry to get somewhere
In a hurry to get somewhere
And the world's tryin' to stop us
And you feel like you're nowhere
'Cause the world's tryin' to stop ya
Stop ya
Too many barriers

I knew it. I just knew it.

2009-03-20T12:35:00.002+08:00

UGGGGGGHH OMGGGGG.
GROSS TO THE MAXXXXX.
(inserts emoticon that shows gross)

2009-03-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for all the short and seemingly nonsensical entries I have posting lately. It's just because everything that I want others to know I have already told them. :D
So I suppose it won't make sense to write anything here.

Tomorrow is going to be technically the last day of the holidays. Honestly, I'm thankful CTs were over already before the holidays (thank God for VJ's understanding teachers. Haha.) and so I won't have to spend my holidays being a muggersaurus.
And since tomorrow will be the last day, I better make sure I'm going to enjoy it ttm. So, I better get to bed now. Goodnight world.

Too many barriers? I hope not.

2009-03-17T19:52:00.008+08:00

Sometimes Five Times Over

1.Sometimes everything seems to be going along so nicely it becomes almost scary.

2.Sometimes I wonder if you're thinking of the same thing as I do when we are on the same topic.

3.Sometimes I'm amazed that we can be so different and yet so similar.

4.Sometimes I think, on this long long journey of life, how much have you and I travelled before we can safely say our paths have crossed, overlapped, and will never run parallel against each other ever.

5.

There's a reason for everything, everything, everything under the sun. Thank you Jesus.

2009-03-16T16:31:00.008+08:00

When I Have Fears That We May Cease To Be.

Suddenly I see,
what you mean to me
And what we lost is found,
Love is all around
And do you think of me,
like I think of you
Can you hear the sound,
love is all around.
Love is all around.

2009-03-15T20:39:00.005+08:00

Great is my reward, and greater it will be.
Thank you for teaching me the beauty of God-sent people.

I am really thankful for friends. But especially so for those who I strongly feel are God-sent. Yeah, you may think that anyone you meet is God-sent, but there's always 2 or 3 that so special, you would think ever getting to know them is a miracle impossible to happen.
Was on the phone alot the past few days, talking to different people, but yet all about the same stuff. Well, almost. Saw things from different perspectives through the eyes of others and I don't know how to put it, but I can only say I am thankful ttm for people like Jf and Hj.

Went for NUS open house today. Yeah call me ks but I don't care, I finally know what I want and where God has been directing me towards. I think I know its the right path, because this is the first time I ever felt so strongly towards something in the Higher Ed side of stuff.
You don't know how long I've been at a loss. It is only this year that I finally understand that I have been foolishly walking in the opposite direction all along. But it is not too late, something I did not fully believe until today. Hopefully, the cliche P word coupled with God's grace will fuel me in the right direction once and for all.

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name.

Lord, I actually think You give more than you take away.

2009-03-13T16:36:00.004+08:00

Even when CTs are over and everything has been swept away,
Because something still feels not right,
That is why I still am not quite the happy self I'm supposed to be during the post-exam period.

Hopefully things will pick up from tonight/tomorrow onwwards. Sigh.

Anyway, I have this super strong urge to go for photoshoots.
Ayeee. I want to just sandwich the camera between two of mes, behind and infront of the camera. :D All but inspired by ANTM12. :DDDDD
One bliss that has not been subdued by other things. Heh.

wedding photography. -meltzz.

2009-03-12T21:44:00.003+08:00

I don't know what happened,
all I want to do is ask God to protect you,
and to add a side note of- 'missing you like crazy'.

Aww.

2009-03-08T18:25:00.004+08:00

Holy macaroni.
CT1 begins in thirteen and a half hours.

Not to say the least bit scared is lying but I have people who make my day and an everlasting God that says:

"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:33-34

Goodbye world and to everyone else who has to undergo the same fate as I do, may God's blessings go with you. :D

2009-03-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

What keeps me from the brink of giving up?

2009-03-04T19:45:00.005+08:00

HAAAIYAAAAAH. I DON'T CARE ALREADY.

I want to hear someone's voice.

Now, let's think, where do we stand?

~~4 more days to CTs~~ ONE MORE WEEK TO (fake) HOLIDAYS.
everybody say yay.

5 days to say hello, 2 days to say goodbye.

2009-03-03T19:46:00.000+08:00

IMYIMYIMYIMYIMYIMYIMY.

HAHAHAHAHA.

2009-03-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

Oh myyyyy.

God works is such perfect and beautiful ways.

They usually sidle up to you at the most unusual, most unexpected of times, and the impact they have is simply unfathomable. :D

So, I suppose in a way, He did answer my prayer. -beams non-stop :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-03-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

12345.

how should i feel? :/

Last week has been pretty eventful. Starting off with BioSPA on Thursday. Chanted (as quoted by Lynette) BioSPA phrases like a crazy woman the entire night before and the morning before and on the bus while i slowly (heh, Cihui don't kill me) made my way to school. Felt damn good that I didn't have to wake up early for ChemSPA at 8am. Tralala~.

Then Friday was VJC Cross-Country and as usual didn't run cos of LTMC and so became official with Melanie and Calvin. Was quite boring and gross with people's sweat dripping on the table like every single minute. Poor Calvin's GC even kena-ed some huge blob of someone's sweat. Yuckzzzx. Oh and poor Seannie fell and scraped almost everywhere but his face and even his pe tee had blood. Looking at his scraped hands just made me cringe with pain too. D:

After Cross Country, went to boring old Parkway and ate at Pastamania with Seannie and Cihui. Okay, being random here- I hate Pastamania for the tons of garlic I presume they cook with their pasta cos it simply stings my breath up! ): Alright back to story~. Accompanied him to buy bandages for his injuries and then went off to shop with Cihui. Sadly, could only window shop cos not enough $$ and also recession pfft, so better not take any $$ I have for granted. Ate (damn good) ice cream then went home. Oh, I hate yoghurt. HAHA.

Saturday night went to Parkway again but this time with Mummy Daddy while the boys went to some Scouts bbq. And of course I did shop. Hahahaha. Ate (the same damn good) ice cream again. Omggg. Guiltyzzzx.

Seems like I'm slacking a whole lot eh.

2009-02-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

This is a nice website to visit. I've been hooked. :D

2009-02-27T20:10:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm on cloud nine and feeling very happy now.
Omg, I really need to talk to Hj.

I don't want anymore wasted chances please. Just let me feel bliss all over again. Thank you thank you. :)

2009-02-19T22:30:00.006+08:00

And the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

And nothing will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:39

In Christ Alone, my hope is found, he is my light, my strength, my song.

Even when everything fails me and fades away, I know He will always hold my hand and I can be more than a conquerer in Christ.

I tell you what my pet peeve is. People who claim to be Christians and spell God as god. It seriously irritates me to no end.

2009-02-08T20:17:00.003+08:00

Friday had class picnic with s39 and it was rather fun, just a small group of us, having fun by ECP. Too lazy to upload pictures here since Blogger's format never fails to screw my posts layout. So Facebook they are on.

Just had steamboat to wrap up the celebrations for Cny this year. My uncle and maternal grandmother came over to join us as well. Ate till I burst and I think I should really stop eating soon so that I won't put on anymore weight. ): I want to maintain, maintain, maintain!

Went out to Tmall with Daddy Mummy for lunch and shopped around for a few other groceries/clothes and I think I really enjoy spending time with them. They make me forget all my worries because I totally feel free and happy with them. I really thank God for blessing me with such a great family. Nah, great is an understatement. I don't ever want to exchange my parents for anyone else's.

Differential equations make me both happy and frustrated at the same time, haha. I get frustrated when I can't solve it, but I feel so happy when Daddy teaches me and I know how to get the final answer. (I get extra satisfied when I can show the show kind of questions if ykw what I mean. Haha.)

Oh wells, it's back to school all proper tmr and I think I really need school to remind myself that CTs are REALLY ROUND THE CORNER. Feel like my brain's failing me ttm and I can't seem to remember so many things even though I've read through them a million times. D':
Plus this week doesn't seem to have much of a motivation to go to school I think...

Kind of made up my mind last night about certain things I've been thinking about quite a lot. I guess things must happen in His time, and I am powerless when it comes to my future. God is in control of my life since I have already submitted and surrendered all I have to Him.

Nothing can separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus.

Draw me closer to You, closer to You,
Fill my life with Your presence the way You want to,
Till my soul is ablazed, each and everyday,
Draw me closer, closer to You.

2009-02-03T18:39:00.002+08:00

Be a doctor, lawyer, scholar, or be nothing, says the world.

It's hard for people interested in the Arts and Social Sciences to be living in a society like today. They always say, you'll never make it because you have no aim nor ability to study medicine. Then it makes me wonder, does studying Arts subjects make anyone lesser of a person than someone taking Science? My biggest regret of 2008 was choosing Science instead of Arts stream. It's one mistake I'll never forget my entire life for sure. Yet sometimes I am secretly thankful that when people ask what subjects I take, I can say I take Science subjects without the person looking down on me. I know my parents sometimes still live with the mentality that S is always better than A. And sadly, I sometimes find myself wondering that if they are right; especially when Iread emails from the school regarding Scholarship Talks (esp on medicine etc). They say that everyone can be successful in their chosen fields, but who knows if at the back of their minds, they are dying for everyone to get a scholorship? It sucks not being at the top. I am often scared that I'll not make it far in life because of the course I will soon take in university. I am afraid that S people really are brighter and more intellectual than A people. Then when I go to FASS in university, can I still proudly tell others what course I am in? I know it may sound very stupid, but I am really scared. I want my parents to be proud of me, and sometimes I wish that I could enable them to say proudly that their daughter is a accomplised professional in the medical/science field. But I'm 95% sure that this will never come to pass, and for this, I am afraid that they can never boast to others about my accomplishments. My parents are not the materialistic kind, but I know ultimately, every parent would like a child they can be very very proud of. Maybe it can't be confirmed that I can make Mummy and Daddy very very proud of me, but at least I can still try while I'm still trying.

SCARED.

2009-02-01T19:08:00.004+08:00

The mind tends to play such funny tricks on me. It is powerful, and sometimes incomprehensible.

Of words I don't dare to speak of anymore.

For fear of you discovering.

I knew leap years had a special meaning to it.

2009-01-31T19:18:00.002+08:00

Thank you Jesus for always showering me with so much love through the people around me especially my family.

Chinese New Year is over, and it's back to school for me and the rest of the family. D: Not that going to school and being muggersaurus is anything bad (heh.) Just sometimes, school can get pretty tiring.

[edit]
Okay, shall blog about my 4 day break now. Friday, missed school and went to Sentosa with mummy for the sculpture design competition at the Sentosa Flowers Festival thing. And guess what, we won 2nd! Yay, even came out in the papers, even though the photo featured wasn't any of the top 3 schools who won. Irrritathang. Went to church at night for service and was kind of sad because of some realisations. Guess it'll never be easy for me ayes.

Saturday, rotted about at home. Supposed to plan something with Jf, but in the end, she had loads of work to finish so all plans were cancelled.

Sunday, CNY eve. But even so had to study. ): Had reunion dinner at night and it wasn't as _ as I expected, it was good food though. :DD I love udon in steamboat. Haha. Watched abit of the CNY show on TV and then called Hj to talk around 11.30 and counted down to CNY together. Haha, even though we didn't even know that 12am came around so fast; (cos time flies when we're talking yo). Talked late into the night and then went to sleep (for fear of eyebags the next morning). Haha, nah, jk.

Monday, went to T.Mama's house around lunchtime as was quite surprised to see so many people gathered there. Was a rather joyous occasion and I really enjoyed the food, company, and camwhoring. Hah. Tuesday, the same group of people came to my house again, and of course, we once again feasted on Mummy's deliciousmo cooking. Everyone was full of praises, haha, from the tarts she baked to the noodle she fries/boils/whatever. Haha. More camwhoring, then headed to Gee-Ee's house and walked around the area below her condo. Camwhored even more. Haha, okay maybe our middle names should be camerafriendly. But seriously, this year, our SLR was in such a good good mood, I really love all the photos! :DD

Okay that's it for now. A quick update and of course, photos from my lovely lovely SLR. Maybe I don't have to buy new lenses/body anymore! (: Okay, the photos are in a majorly random order. Sorry!

2009-01-26T09:58:00.007+08:00

Hello everyone, today should be a happy day, so no sad stuff shall be written here.

Instead,

have a great lunar new year, and may God's blessings be on you as you go around doing visitations! (: May everyone collect many angpows, but be careful not to eat your throat sore. Haha.

2009-01-18T18:10:00.004+08:00

Three words; not I Love You, but I Am Here.

Had late night talk with Hj on friday, and I think seriously, we can be such jokers and such serious people all at the same time. We laugh about the same things; teachers in Cedar; how we became so close; other people's lovelives. Haha. It can get pretty mean at times, but like all girls, we bitch. Haha.

Oh ytd talked to Jf about possible plans after A's and I'm feeling damn excited alr, so I'm going to work hard then let my hair down at the end of the year after A's and play hard till all my hair drops out. Haha, okay rather vivid description I think. But yeah, you get the point. There are so many places I wanna go, I really think approx 1 month is so not enough for me to fulfill my wanderlust (as how Jf calls herself) dreams. Dying to fly out of this hot and humid island and into some cold, 4layers thick country. All I need to do now is pray and ask God to help me with something though, because I know if this does not improve, I might just not have the chance to travel to simply anywhere I like anymore. ):

So, -dear God, you know my heart the best, all that I'm asking you for. Please hear me and help me. Thank you.

2009-01-15T21:54:00.007+08:00

Why we still can go on with our normal lives, when there is a war raging on halfway round the other side of the same planet we are on. Maybe this is protection that God is covering us with. Maybe its a reminder of how blessed we should be to be living in perfect normality.

Or maybe we should not focus on the word War, but rather the People of the War. Like the Children, the Women, and the Innocents. Living in the 21st Century is not all scientific and technological advancements. Living today is just like living in the past, because how we fight never changed, how we argued never changed, how we kill never changed.

And we don't even know if they know what they are doing.

2009-01-09T23:39:00.004+08:00

Dear God, please give me strength to face the day. Sometimes when I see things I wish I didn't, my heart falls a million storeys. Nonetheless, those things are often hard to miss because I am such a terribly nosey person, is that not right?

In You In You I find my peace

In You In You I find my strength
In You I live and move and breathe

Let everything I say and do

Be founded by my faith in You

I lift up holy hands and sing

Let the praises ring!

2009-01-08T21:12:00.004+08:00

Three's a crowd.

If one photo is all it takes to break someone's heart then you have well succeeded. But life still has to go for me, no doubt that.

Go on, play that song that makes me cry.

Feels like I can't face you anymore. Tyvm.

2009-01-08T10:55:00.013+08:00

Had s39 class chalet from Tuesday till today but I only went for the first two days. Didn't stay overnight though. First day met alittle of the class at Tampines for groceries shopping at first and had lunch. Then took 29 down to Aloha Changi. Sat outside playing poker while waiting for the key to come cos apparently the person who booker the chalet has to check in. But in the end I guess they let us have the key. Had bbq around 6 plus, and Jiani ze Pro started the fire with no difficulties at all. Everyone was like ODACODAC ahaha but actually I think its her guides exp that made it possible. Anyways. Had a beautiful fire and then began bbqing.

Look at the nice piles of charcoal Jiani made. :DD Cihui said Jiani's proness at starting a fire would surely lead to alot of guys asking for her hand in marriage next time. Haha, but so silly, not like Jiani's going to marry some tarzan fellow right.

Oh yah sth quite funny happened:

Cihui: Eh the heat from the bbq very good, can open my pores then can detox. *keeps fanning the charcoal and enjoying the heat*

Jialin: But later all the black smoke/charcoal bits go into the pores then you'll get blackheads.

Cihui: Oh yah hor, okay then I don't want alr. I need a lot of cool air now so that my pores can close. *tries to cover her face so that the smoke won't go in*

Me: Aiyoh Cihui can you stop it, like so vain like that!

Hahaha, and all this while, Jiani with her tanned and toned arms was manning the charcoal. Pro manxzxx. I think s39 is almost like a bbq company, haha seemed like as if there were departments of food everywhere. Sharon with her crabmeat, Cihui with the sotongballs, Jiarong with the chickenwings, Weijie/Althea/Aaron with the satays and Yuwen happily cutting up pieces of meat. Haha. And of course Jiani gladfully mending the pieces of charcoal. Pretty efficient. And as for me, I was just hanging around and taking over duties from Cihui occasionally. And of course, snapping photos. HAHA. Cihui left halfway during the bbq, and after the bbq went back into the chalet and some of them began to play mahjong/cards. I didn't know how to, so just sat at the side (and guarded the door watched them play, haha). Daddy came around 10.30 so I left after that.

Cihui happily fanning the flames.

The various departments who were doing the bbq.

Day2, went back tgt with Jiani at around 10am. Everyone was still sleeping though but thankfully Sean came to open the door for us. Guess our doorbell woke him up. Oops. Anyway, - watched Okto with the 2 Jias, Jiani and Jialin. But afterwards went to do a little bit of homework till around 2plus. Waited for Yuwen to come then left tgt with Jiani, Jialin, Jingwen, Sean, Calvin and Weijie for DowntownEast and ate Subwayyy (:D). Ate till super full then went to Pasir Ris Park for cycling. Rented for only an hour because the shop was closing so we had to return the bikes. Calvin tried to teach Weijie how to cycle while the rest of us tried encouraging him. Haha. Pity he couldn't grasp it yet but I'm sure he soon will because cycling isn't that hard. Must jiayou! (: Been quite some time since I cycled at PRP so it was quite enjoyable. I already feel like bringing my own bike to cycle, haha then I can cycle for as long as I want without any reservations. Yays.

All of us at the rental shop.

At the bus stop waiting for 29 to come, I think it was Jialin who suggested taking a emo shot. Haha, and we got this photo. Then I went to edit to give it more feel. Haha, I think Jingwen looks more tired than emo.

On the way back to chalet on 29 (the bus most frequented during the chalet cos it was the only one that could bring us to the chalet).

Came back to the chalet and watched Tv for a while then left again to Thaipan with Jiani, Jiarong, Weijie, Althea, Calvin and Yuwen. Didn't eat much cos I was already so full from the Subway before. Had stupid conversations about armpits and armpit hair (!!), and the guys kept comparing theirs. Waaaah, damn disgusting especially since it was before we started eating. Then Althea showed us all the OGheads photos, and we kept laughing at Jiarong because of his highforehead and how the hat accentuated it. Damn funny. Oh yah and Althea's costume quite sexaye, with the black tights and all.

Look at the red pot of tom yam soup, it is so hot and spicy that it even glows with such a fiery red colour.

Haha, no lah, I think it is Yuwen's camera, then so qiao the light from the camera flashed onto that pot of soup only. There, told you, it actually looks pretty harmless. I only realised that pretty cool effect when I was editing the photos just now. Haha.

After dinner strolled back to chalet along the boardwalk and was pretty scary because it was quite dark. Actually Jiani and I were at the back then after that it got really dark so we decided to go to the front so that we'll at least have some security that there's always someone behind us. Hahah. Quite dumb actually.

I think got many more photos like group photos but then it's not with me. So I got to wait till people upload them. Till then, happy holidays, because it is only 3 more days left to schoooooool.

Oh the ~~horror~~ delight.

2009-01-05T17:06:00.007+08:00

Just realised I have been ranting so much that I forgot to update about 2 January. Heh.

Went out with Hj and Loggy again but this time to Bugis and as usual, Loggy was lateeeee. Hmph~! Both Hj and I insisted that she treat us to lunch, (cos we agreed whoever was the latest would have to treat) but she irritatingly brushed it off with her having no money!

HAHA. TSK YOU LOGGYDOGGY.
Ate at Soup Spoon till we burst cos we were so full with the breadbowl and all so decided to walk around and also shop (:D) at the same time. Tried looking for school shoes and finally bought a pair. Wanted red but decided it was way too glaring, although I really wanted it because it would remind me of Doctor Who whenever I look at it. :DDD I love his sneakers. Heh.

Oh yes and I also bought my vest, like finally. Have been looking for it for ages, and finally I got it even though it was much much much much consideration. Thanks so much, Hj&Loggy for accompanying me around the same old shops so many times and bearing all my nonsense just about one vest. Haha.

Then Loggy left to meet her friend and so it was just me and Hj. Went to get Gelato (:D) while Hj got soyabeanmilk and we continued to walk around on the quest to find me a wallet. Heh. Finally, found my wallet as well, after not much hesitation because it felt like love at first sight. HAHA. Prettttty turquoise, always my fave. :D Left not long after.

1January, New Year's Day, went out with the family to TampinesMall to collect my contacts and also to get my brother a new pencil case. Shopped around for a bit but didn't find anything particularly interesting so went to pick Mama up and went to the Pasir Ris zichar stall to eat. Food was good and satisfying but very filling. Hah.

^A very satisfied Justin. :D

3January, had tuition in the morning and then after that went to meet Mummy at PS. Ate lunch at Hot Tomato Express for the first time. Food was relatively affordable but not very fantastic. Daddy's TP western stall at the canteen kind of actually beats it. Both in terms of price and taste. Haha. I rather eat at TP anydayyy. :D I miss their Japanese stall's chicken and unagi too! Anyways, after lunch went to Daiso and shopped for Mummy's Sentosa CNY competition stuff. Carried a whole bunch of CNY flowers and decorations; looked pretty silly, but who cares, haha, with Mummy, I don't need to be ashamed of anything. Left PS and went to develop my 8R photo but when I reached there I realised that the shop was already closed so I had made a wasted trip but anyways, I am going down again this Sat.

So guess that was how I spent the first 3 days of the year. (:

2009-01-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

3 January, 330 posts.

I don't know why, but I always seem to be harping on how many posts I have. Guess I just like to keep keeping track.

I dislike to be going down the wrong path. And you know it's hard to turn back even you know so badly that everything is wrong wrong wrong.

I dislike people who misuse terms which I believe in so strongly. Even though I may not be using them for the coming year, or even last year, they were my everything in upper sec. Don't know why but it hurts so badly even though they are but simple english words.

I dislike why people of other religion refuse to accept Christianity. Like we Christians have never given in to them. All those drama serials always portray families of other religions but NEVER Christianity. Why, just because you have more things to talk about, to blame, to thank for whenever something good or bad happens? All their rituals are but of other religions but when it comes to a wedding, where do they hold it? In a church.

How ridiculous. And I think I even vaguely remember one screen couple said that they wanted to have their wedding in a church because it was more romantic. (!!!)

More romantic? That's all it means to you when you hold your wedding in a church? Maybe you all might think why I am kicking up such a big fuss about fictional stories, but mind you, these dramas do impact a mighty lot of viewers, (ahem, The Little Nonya) and what will they think of Christianity in such cases? I bet it only seems like a very insignificant and superficial religion to them.

How much sadder can it get! Than to see my religion being put under injustice and insult.

I don't ever think things will change for the better in the near future anyway. Everyone will still be portrayed as of another religion in shows.

I pray for someone one day, who ~~will~~ can make a change. ):

2008-12-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

2008 has been a year of hope, of love, of decisions, of loss.

Everything in this year, despite good or bad, I really thank God for it.

2008 started out a new year in JC and I had such a tough time adjusting to JC life. I couldn't get to used to it even up till June. Maybe that is why my results for Midyears were so so bad. But nonetheless, my dearest friends in school kept me going and I guess we all kind of helped support each other in various ways.

Cihui, my bestest sister in Christ- I thank God sincerely for putting both of us together in the same school, same class. I would love to think that this is a miracle. I believe that He wanted to use 2 unsuspecting daughters of His to reach out to another 2 of his lost sheep. We may have yet to win the fight, but we'll never give up yah. (:
Jiani and Lynette, our circle of womenhood- Everything this year we went through together, from maddening guys to amusing ones, to all our study times during breaks. Our circle of womenhood may soon become the circle of womenmuggers. :D But I'm so proud of us because we really stand up for each other in times of serious need.

Then came my larryloves- Without them, my life would only have circled around school and nothing else. But because of their craziness and vegetably good love, I can always look forward to outings with them. :D As much as we have kind of drifted as JC/poly life starts to take a toll on us, I hope we'll continue to stick like good vege freinds do.

Huijuan and Loggy- Thank you for all that we've shared between us this year. I don't even remember how we became so close during our times in Cedar, nor after we graduated. Hj- thanks for being there during my lowest time of the year. I remember that night where we had the longest online convo ever, where I told all my deepest secrets. I don't know what made me open up to you, but there's something about you that makes you deserve the title of bestest listener ever. I have always been the one to listen to others so when finally someone was willing to listen to my secrets, I seriously couldn't be happier. Thank you very very much. Loggy- Maybe you don't know this but there are some things that happened that I perfectly understand. I have been there done that in a certain way, ways you probably don't get it. Anyway, whatever it is, I wish you all the best. I may not have all the patience in the world, so I pray that you may pardon me for sometimes appearing to be not understanding you at all.

I was never particularly active in school activities, but in December I went for Conrad Centennial Hotel attachment and that was serious fun! (: I have too much to say here but then I really thank God for granting me this one wish. As I asked around I really think that the fact I got this attachment is a miracle. Anyways, this experience made me realise that God never leaves me, because He even gives me friends that I feel totally ease at and He even protects me by giving me friends who go home the same way I do. :D I guess this assures me that His hand is always on my life and I should never ever doubt his presence.

[Doorman aka most important man in the hotel; Yusheng; Mandy; Sihui; Me; Changyong]

[Tianyu; Joel; Me; Mandy; Changyong; Huiyi; Sihui; Jaslyn; Steffi]

[Yusheng; Faz Jr, one of the bellboys; Sihui; Mandy; Me]

[Most of the girls under the pretty bear tree. :D Though I never really fancied the bear. HAHA. ]

Last but surely surely not the least, my dearest family.

How they have supported me during this time;

Jf- for all our study/work dates at the airport, our little artsy outings and all the talks we had about adulty things. Jn- Truth be told, we don't really talk much anymore but I believe it is because we don't share a common schedule, as well as many common topics. Nonetheless, I hope you understand that sometimes even I can change as I grow older. Just don't expect me to be the same anymore. Still, we can have our makeover/camwhore sessions whenever we both can be free. Just remember that I have a crucial year ahead, so.-

My other cousins, Brittany and Travis- I believe we have grown to be so much closer this year. After a particular incident, there is something extra that has bound us even closer. Thank you for every fun moment that we have shared. (:

My one and only God-given, God-blessed family. From Mummy to Daddy, to Austin and Justin, I really don't know how to ask for a better family. And of course the woman who first build this family, Ahma, my strong grandmother who has weathered through 84 years of life. Looking around at all the broken families in this world and all the people who lack fatherly/motherly love, I am constantly reminded to be grateful, to be thankful for every single moment spent together.

Finally, this one elderly couple that has loved me so very much. My Ahgong and Ahma- God bless you for all that you've done for me. Your strength throughout all these years together, and your love for each other is so strong, it lasts even after death.

Ahgong, even though you may not be around to celebrate Christmas, New Year, CNY and all the other festivals that may come in the future with us, I thank God for blessing me with you. As Daddy and GuGu said, you are a very simple and quiet man. Nonetheless, you blessed everyone in this family with your simple gifts and actions. How you've built this family together with Ahma, one that still honours family values amazes me. I thank God for taking you away at such a time at this, so that whenever we celebrate His birth, we give thanks for your life as well. I thank God for taking away all your suffering. But as much as Heaven has welcomed this special person, we still feel the sorrow. Till we meet again, enjoy your days in heaven.- :D And as for Ahma, thank you for being strong, so strong.

And finally, you. I think although it lasted only for a very very extremely short while, I still enjoyed myself thoroughly for that short time. It was not easy before, or after but then I think I'll never regret this moment we shared. Thanks for the memories, as cliche as it may sound.

And so as you can tell, 2008 has been eventful yet trying for me. I know 2009 will be

challenging as well but I can face it bravely with God's help.

All things will work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28

2008-12-28T18:16:00.009+08:00

Alot has happened since the last entry, but i shall talk about them in my 2008 concluding entry.

Meanwhile, here are pictures from last monday's outing with cihui and jiani to ehub and then to my house. :D

Hee. We camwhored quite a lot in my room. I think my room is really very nice to camwhore in. HAHAHA. Sorry, feeling a little ego here.

Photos!

haha, notice how cihui hardly moves.

2008-12-23T21:14:00.002+08:00

hey love, what do you know?

Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas this year. No parties, no caroling, no no love. ):

It's just sad to see that in another 3 weeks, I've got to work hard again. Why, I dread the feeling of having to go back to school. I doubt my brain works anymore. I believe it has really gone all rusty. And worse of all, I feel so lazy to start again. I think it's fear of not being able to remember and recall facts that I've studied before. You know, like when you try reading the notes that you've studied before and realise, oh dang, I can't remember a thing. Why does it all seem so unfamiliar now? ):

Not the best of feelings to have at such a Christmassy time of the year. SAD.

Jesus, please don't ever leave me.

I have to say this even though I know you'll never will.

2008-12-20T23:06:00.004+08:00

of fired eggs and thai fod.

Holidays are slipping away like its nobody's business and I hate that!

I wanted Christmas to come quickly this year but at the end of it I think I forget why I want it so badly because it doesn't seem any much magical than the other times of the year. Perhaps we have to blame it on Singapore's weather, not even the slightest bit of cold even though its mid-december.

Then again.

-Correction, the meaning of Christmas is too warped. Christmas is to celebrate Jesus' birthday, not a celebration of Santa and presents.

Although Jesus' birth was indeed a magical moment, that should be the only one we should celebrate. I suppose you can't deny the fact it is a good time to celebrate friendships and love. Even sometimes I find myself forgetting that the real star of Christmas is Jesus, and not reunions, presents, lights on Orchard road whatsoever.

I am pretty tired after the attachment and I think we took alot of photos but I haven't gotten them from any of my attachment friends, quite sadly. Work has come and gone so quickly.

Somehow my mind only seems to be focused on one thing. Next year,- and all that follows after.

I feel so tired thinking about the things I have to do, the people I want to thank, the stuff I have to study, the people I wanna reach out to, the parts I want to heal. I am no superwoman, but I know with God's help, I can become one.

Dear Jesus, please help me tide over this time. You know I need your help so much. Thank you.

2008-12-15T22:15:00.002+08:00

Been working for about 6 days now, another 4 more to go only!
Even though I enjoy it, it is still extremely tiring and I can't wait to just stay at home and rot till its Christmasss!!

Anyways, working has really opened up my eyes to things that I never knew before. Hotel working life is SO not easy and all the tourisy things seriously excite me. HAHA!
Made so many new friends here and there and I think my perception of something I used to hate so much last time has changed drastically. Good or bad, I have yet to decide.

Even so, my social life is a little on the downside because I have totally no time to meet anyone! 12-8 everyday totally drains all my energy, I can't even meet moomoocharu or Hj. Sad!
Ah wells, I hope everything goes according to plan and I can meet my friends soooon!

Oh yah, according to Mandy, tomorrow, Fahrenheit is coming to Conrad. Haha, I can't wait to see if there are any screaming fangirls hanging around the lobby. And maybe Mr Bell-Boy will get to open the door for them! HAHAHA. Omg. Funny. Too bad I ain't a fan of them. If only it was like The Script or something. Tsk. Okay, haha better stop before I offend any Fahrenheit's fans.

My Hope Singapore, another thing, has gotten me seriously excited. Haha, I really begin to see God working in little amazing ways that will come together to make this entire program a total success. But of course, this success may not be immediate, it could be in the future or as someone once said, it is just a seed that is planted. And it could develop later on in the future.

Tonight, Survivor Finale and Reunion for 3 hours all the way to 2AM. My oh my, don't know if I can last or not. To top it off, I've got to wake up early tomorrow.
Already, I feel a little woozy. HAHA.

Okays, BYEBYE!

2008-12-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

Please baby, don't ever make me cry.

Okay this has been an eventful week, quite fulfilling in fact.

Monday, went out with Hj and we had a very long lunch together followed by very sweet treats after. Haha. Talked about a lot of stuff and things that she had been dying for one entire week to hear. Anyway Hj, if you're ever reading this, I have already made my mind up. And I think you already know the answer as well.

Tuesday, went out with mummy and brothers to get new spectacles. I like them many many although my degree is so high that my lenses are ultra thick. ):

Wednesday, went for uniform fitting at Conrad and it was so interesting to get to see all the behind-the-scenes stuff that goes on in a hotel. Uber coolness. Tried on the uniform that I was supposed to wear and even though I think it looks a bit funny, I should be able to get used to it soon. Hahah, just pray that my feet won't die on me. But then again, it'll be a good excuse for me to get a new pair of flats. Hah.

Thursday, otherwise known as today, went out with the family to watch Bolt. Not bad I suppose, but I didn't really enjoy it as much as the other Pixar films like Ratatouille which was fantastique. Nonetheless, Rhino, the adorable fat furball is one hamster anyone would die for to have as a pet. Haha. Oh believe me, he IS that cute.

Tomorrow, nothing much I guess, gonna rot at home or maybe, hehe, watch that new Korean movie I've been eyeing. Cos someone is there is well, pretty hot I have to admit. My brothers will be leaving this Sunday for camp and I'll be left all alone with ze parents. How sad is that! But guess that might not matter much since I'll be starting Conrad soon. Oh yeah.

Doesn't matter if I fly or not, I'm going to take one virtual flight every day for the next 2 weeks of my life.

2008-11-26T13:24:00.002+08:00

thank you for adding on to my wonderful memories.
i'll keep them somewhere safe, you ain't got to worry.
hope you'll remember them too.

you always make my day, night, whatever.

2008-11-24T19:00:00.002+08:00

Cross my fingers and really pray that everything will be okay.
I have no idea why I am so afraid for. I seriously need a whole bulkload of courage.
Anyone has any to spare? ):

This week is so going to be exciting. :D
And I hope I have stories to tell hj! Haha. Can't wait.
But before that, I have got to get over this hurdle first!

2008-11-18T20:13:00.002+08:00

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you.

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok.

-Breakeven, The Script.

I've fallen in love with the above song. Can't say how much it explains how I feel sometimes about you.

Anyways, I have 2MOO-VEES on my iPod. Very very happy because it means I can watch movies while I'm travelling to and fro. Haha.
Okays, I am getting very bored of the computer. And the new telly is here anyway, so I shall go watch it. HAHA! ((:

2008-11-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

I am so happy, because I've been spamming my brain with ANTM :D

Haha, waiting for it to come on telly takes way too much patience, so I decided to take the first step and watch it on all the funny cheena websites.

I think this season really rocks. (okay cliche word.)

Haha, the contestants are so darn beautiful. Really, many of them don't really look good when normal times, but throw on makeup and clothes and the poses they do, oh my, they look so gorgeous. I love Marjorie! She really looks like the perfect European actress, although sadly her insecurity gets the better of her all the time. And of course not forgetting the FASHION PHOTOGRAPHY. Omggg I can't imagine how they manage to take such beautiful shots. I am sooo filled with envy.

Alrighties, thats all for now, I really hope that the videos load quickly cos its gets really annoying when they take forever to load.

2008-11-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

Watched many many movies recently! Haha, SafeSurf has been deactivated so that gives me loads of reason to watch like FREEEE. (as quoted from kq, because it IS free!) Haha.

1. ...ing (some korean show that made me cry bucketloads!)

2. Bee Movie (this was really funny but the ending kind of stupid)

3. Ms Pettigrew Lives For A Day (omgggg best movie so far. :D)

4. The Nanny Diaries (the littleboy was adorable at first but later he reminded me of some spooky horror movie)

5. Camp Rock (haha, I know this is dumb, but I just wanted to pass my time)

6. The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 (extremely sweet. :D)

Waaah, 6 movies in like 3 days, that's an average of 2 movies a day. :D

I wanted to watch KungFu Panda and Wall-E too, yeah I know I'm so darn late, but sorry lah, just no life you see. But they took forever to load. So I gave up hope.

I wanted to watch Igor too! But everything was more than 50% bad so I couldn't get to watch.

Anyways, talked to hj last night for like the first and the longest time on msn. Had a really good heart-to-heart talk about everything that I've been thinking about for such a really long time. I really thank God for friends like hj tht can really understand me inside out. I used to have other friends who were like that but I guess they all drifted away. For hj, somehow don't know why the more we are separated in different schools the closer we become. Really amazing.

I think I realise after all this time, that I've been searching too hard for that something you'll never repay me. So I'll heed hj's advice and move on, and keep those memories happy forevermore.

As for loggy, I hope you can solve your problem asap. Sometimes, I think you've just got to know, its not that I don't understand, it's because I haven't told you yet. Sorry girl, something just isn't right about the telling part.

Anyways, I've been cooped up at home this entire week except for monday where I went to school and got myself all soaked in the rain. Being at home sure has its advantages (watching movies like nobody's business) but also has its major disadvantages (you get bored after awhile).

Time to find something new to entertain myself.

~1month more! :D

2008-11-08T22:57:00.003+08:00

she misses their late night calls like no other.
its been many months since their last conversation.
why did it all stop so abruptly?

2008-11-04T19:41:00.002+08:00

We put in so much effort just to let someone (plural form included) copy us. Well done.
This world is unfair to the max. Why can't they just can't up with some stupid idea themselves, slap it on, and call it theirs. So, their ideas are not good enough. Right, that gives them all the right in the world to copy. I see.

Saw a cedarian today at bedok mrt and I couldn't stand the way she was dressed. Omg, look at her. Just look at her. Should have just took my phone out to take a photo of her. Any cedarian would have been damn irritated I am sure. Okay, maybe anyone who is an ex-cedarian. No wonder when I was in cedar, they often emphasised how important a uniform was to a student. It shows the whole world what your school is like. Omg. If she thought that she looked good, I don't know who else is.

Feeling pretty angsty today. Watched The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 and it was so nice, but it brought back many sad memories. Especially the theatre part. I know its something I have lost forever. I was so dumb to let it all go. I wanted so much to blame someone for it, but I think doing so would only worsen the pain. So I just move on.

This whole post is wrought with emotion, maybe I just need someone to talk to. Correction - not someone, anyone, but you.

Oh yes, 2nov wasn't so bad. Thought going up to that same level would bring back such terrible thoughts, but turned out to be not so. Maybe I've just rifled too many feelings, more than I should. Maybe, its like a mask. So actually, I don't have so much emotions regarding that already.

Shit, I hate being vague.

2008-10-31T15:12:00.002+08:00

Alright while waiting for my movie to load, I shall go blog about this week. :D

Monday, went to loggy's house together with hj and had a good time. Talked girls talk and helped loggy think through some stuff. Kind of ventured into stuff we neverused to talk about but anyway, at least we all did tide over something together. Haha. :D

Tuesday, projectwork over at my house. Managed to do everything as planned in a very short time, much more productive than I expected us to be. (: So went out with Jf to OldSchool @ Mount Sophia. Hee. My memory didn't fail me, well, it was good infact, because I still remembered how to walk from Bugis MRT to OldSchool. :D Although we were practically trudging up the hill at the end of the long walk, I think the exhibition we went to was worth the walk. Hopefully sarkoo will win something. :D

Walked all the way back to Bugis again, and indulged in ICECREAM SUNDAEES. (: Wanted gelato, but decided why not pay a little more and get service and a nice place to sit down and talk. Haha. Anyway, as usual, we had a good talk again. Then, at the last minute, we decided to go to SimLim Square to get our camera stuff. Jf's SD card and my camera battery. I'm so happy I got it at a really reasonable price. -smiles all around.

Wednesday and Thursday went to school again and continued project work and had rehearsals. I totally love our projectwork group. Haha, not only are we productive and efficient, we can also talk rubbish and gossip about stuff. Absolute fun. :D

Oh yes, my iPod and iTunes annoys the hell out of me. I can't figure out how to downgrade my iPod version from 2.0 to 1.1.5. Haha, I know that sounds so dumb, but I really want my jailbroken apps back! ))):

Stupid me, fell for the trick and thought 2.0 would be better and went to upgrade it. Well, at least I got to try out the newest one, 2.1 for a day. Though I know I can never figure out that Cydia and Installer rubbish. Alrighties, back to my show. Oh before that, photos! (:

I have more but I don't wanna post it up. HAHA. Okay, movietime.

2008-10-28T21:59:00.001+08:00

oh boy, you don't know how you've hurt, angered and broken her little heart. tsk. your insensitivity, i can't comprehend.

shall blog about today another time when i get the photos.

2008-10-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

What do you do when everyone's shooting arrows at you
I'm not superwoman, I can't dodge them in time nor can I catch them in the palm of my hands.
I hope my friends escape them too. ):

Thankfully, together we are happy. And also, extremely productive. :D

I am thoroughly scared of 2nd November. Time for me to go up to the that same top level and face that same scene a few months back. Not fair, I don't want to go through that kind of bad reminiscent. Its not healthy, because my mind keeps automatically switches back to that time we had fun together. Aw, just wish you were here.

2008-10-20T17:00:00.003+08:00

Hah my last post was 311 and so coincidentally, I went to collect 311 photos today.
): My arm almost broke cos it was so darn heavy. And I only own like 5% of the photos!
Jf owwwwes me many many. HAHA. :D Can help save transport costs somemore. How good am I!

Anyways, just read someone's blog and I'm utterly shocked. I can't believe at such a young age they talk openly about such things. I don't remember doing that when I was their age. Okay, maybe I'm the minority. But then again, I thought it was only later on then you talk about such stuff. Or perhaps the world is changing. I remember the boy at Interact. Oh my, the things he used to talk about (and probably still is).

Alright, back to paragraph one. As you read, I had a pretty constructive day. Went to school wee early and did projectwork with all of my groupmates. Only suren came late, cos he overslept. In school. HAHA. If you understand what I was trying to say. Worked hard the entire morning to finish up OP slides. And we are SO done. :DD (I mean in a really really good way.)
Went to have lunch with wj afterwards and we both agree that we are so thankful to be in this really effective group. Haha, I can't be happier.

Okay enough of blogging. I want to watch the new website that I've become a fan of, TED.com! :DDD

Bye!

2008-10-18T18:13:00.002+08:00

She got her own thing
That's why I love her
Miss Independent
Won't you come
And spend a little time

Results officially out. It ain't perfect but it ain't the worst I've seen from myself as well.
Been very very busy with projectwork these few days, I bet my eyesight worsened from all the staring at the computer. Anyways. took a good break yesterday with jf. Went to develop photos (like finally!) and ate japbuffet. :DD Was so terribly hungry that we could both eat a cow each.
Anyways, time spent with jf is always good fun. (:
Can't wait for Christmasss.

Busy looking for photos for OP now. I think God has been very good to me so far. My group is really great, our WR was good, and now our OP is really picking up well. :D Thank you Jesus.

Tomorrow I'm going to start kindy teaching again. Hahah, I told cihui that it would be good practice for me for OP. Yupp, I think it really woud be! Why is God's timing so accurate, I really am amazed by his faithfulness, grace and mercy.
He never fails to surprise/help me in every least expected way.

He supplies me with countless good friends, relatives. He gives me a good family which I know He has made possible for me to rely on them always. He has given me every opportunity for me to thank Him. Oh Jesus, can't thank you enough for all you've done.

2008-10-12T20:28:00.002+08:00

How can one year roll past so fast.

I don't care even its a little too early for reminiscence.
Remember somewhere during end february, one night's memory is still very clear in my mind.
So what if memories stay, you are not there anymore.
How can that happy night be the closest I'll ever come to. Its's not fair.
Maybe you've forgotten, but I wish you'll bring back the magic of that night for me.

How about last year a few months from now, all the music that we played among us. Maybe you've regretted wasting your talent on someone like me. Someone else's ears deserves it more than I do I suppose.

Today when I saw that. something kept tugging inside. Until now.
Maybe it was God trying to tell me something, maybe it was just a trick of my own imagination. Maybe it was really the one, maybe it was something something else.

Its unfair the way memories never quite come back the same way no matter how hard I try to replay them over and over again my head.

Why-not. ):

Maybe one day I'll be your safest place to hide.

This post has way too many maybes. Everything can be so uncertain when you are pensive.

2008-10-11T07:42:00.002+08:00

i'll go on telling myself; that people just forget sometimes.
its neither a trick of the mind, an on purpose thing.
its something to blame no one for.
3 months and you're still bitter.

2008-10-09T11:19:00.002+08:00

UGHHHH. WHY DO I ALWAYS GET SCOLDED FOR NO REASON.

its not even my fault anyway. even my mother doesn't scold me like that.

IDIOTTTTT.

2008-10-02T10:15:00.002+08:00

went to vivocity with huijuan and loggy yesterday,

and as usual, that loggy (whose name should be changed to latey) was late by half and hour! and to think she was on the same purple line, when i was on the green line and yet the earliest. HAHA. and she somemore could say next time we meet, the last person to reach will treat all to lunch, i'll bet its her! but that loggy, ultimate k, she said okay fine, i'll CAMP OVERNIGHT AND WAIT FOR YOU. HAHA. IDIOT.

went food hunting but couldn't find any nice places with vegetarian options cos both log and i were vegetarians, so we ended up in foodcourt. never mind, save money, can spend more! HAHA.

oh yes and i was the biggest shopper yesterday, those two ah, super indecisive, saw so many nice stuff for them to buy and yet they didn't get them. TSK. but poor huijuan who finally decided to get the pretty shorts from Mango found out they didn't have her size. D: that log, saw pretty shorts too from Bossini (however you spell it) but it was over her budget. so, ):

and i'm ultrahappy cos i managed to get the flats i wanted from Kappa! :D that day at queensway they didn't have my size but fortunately the outlet at vivo had it. cihui would be so jealous! HAHA. oh and i bought a skirt too and huijuan and log were so surprised cos i like swept through the store, found the skirt and bought it within like 10 mins. HAHA. it sure sounds like i'm an impulsive buyer. but i am so not, just think about the time at bugisvillage, we walked like from one store to the other and back again trying to decide on what to buy. HEH. :D

anyway, there were also things i didn't manage to buy. )))): like the brown shorts from the shop whose name i don't really know and Forever21 yellow shadddddes! okay never mind, hopefully they'll be notes to self to buy them the next time i see them. HAH. saving money is never a crime anyways.

today, will be loungetime though. on a second thought, maybe i'll bake! :DDD!

alright, lets see how after i watch the scarlet letter. BYEEE!

2008-10-01T00:00:00.005+08:00

yay i'm thoroughly happy. :DDDD

haha, today had vjclique outing, first to queensway and then to bugis!

met cihui and jiani at queenstown mrt and then took a bus to queesway where it was raining ultra heavily! luckily none of us got really wet from the rain.

literally combed the entire shopping centre but found nothing except of course the lovely bag jiani and i bought, though its different design, same range, we still love our bags! there were flats on sale too, but sadly my feet were too small and they didn't have my size. HOW SADDDD. D: i really liked them, hopefully the stall in vivo will have them? ):

ANYWAY, on with the shopping walked around trying to look for more stuff but by then lynette was already at queestown so took a bus back to meet her and then we went BUGIS! together. :D

had ultra shopping spree at bugis street, shopped till we really dropped, especially cihui and

jiani., who went so happy at all the frilly frocks for jiani and nice tees for cihui. hee. lynette was an extremely patient and wonderful shopping partner! who kept picking out more frilly jiani-y stuff for jiani. HAHA.

went to bugis junction afterward and i tried looking for nice flats but seemed like their stock and seasons changed extremely fast, so didn't get to buy any shoes. but we did manage to take neoprints! :D haha had fun especially with the one with cihui sandwiched in between shit as you can see below, she looked ultrahappy with it! HAHA.

yay, 我们四个人! i really thank God for friends, i realised this was actually our first official outing outside school together. :/

after neoprints, lynette cihui jiani all left so i went to meet jienarelle and we ate at the soup spoon and really had alot of fun talking about her internship and university and all the adulty stuff. haha. oh yes and the soups there are really nice, i absolutely love the tangy tomato. or maybe its just that i love all tomato sour-ey soups. HEE. :DDD

walked around for a bit more and went to kino and ohmyyyy there are so many memoirs that i want to read that surely will make me tear and i really love those books! not forgetting the many chicklits piled high upon the bookshelves! HAHA. hopefully i can find some of these books at the library. B)

mmm, then after that was really tired so we decided to go back home. ((:

thank you Jesus for giving me the most wonderfullest day.

tomorrow, meeeeet huijuan and loggyyyyyyy! Omg, i can't hardly wait!

Okay i better sleep before i'll be later for tomorrow's outing.

Oh Charu, you better tell me soon when you're free ah! HAHA, you SO owe me one.

:DDDDDD

-ooh its 12am, happy october!

2008-09-29T22:59:00.006+08:00

ooh 303. nice!

okay today was a retarded day spent with kq. hahah.

first went to pick her at pasirris mrt and also to buy food to eat.

after picking up some tidbits, we took a bus back.

and on the bus back that funny woman suddenly wanted to drink bubble tea, and i told her that she 对茶敏感 so she can't drink it! haha. i know what a retarded excuse, i felt like slapping myself for coming up with such an excuse. felt like i was her mother, telling her can't drink 泡泡茶cos its bad for her. :D then we came up with more retarded 敏感reasons like:

1. 你不可以看电视因为你对电视敏感。(!!)

2. 你不可以睡觉因为你对睡觉敏感。

3. 你不可以去我的家因为你对我的家敏感。

(what a good mother am i!)

oh and we had the dumbest convo on the bus:

kaiqi: how many more stops to your house?

me: next stop... eh no i mean 5. (but next stop was the right answer)

kaiqi: eh don't bluff i know its the next one.

me: no, its really 5!

kaiqi: okay fine, at the next stop you don't get off ah, sit all the way to the 5th stop with me.

me: 不可以! 如果我坐巴士超过3stops, 我就会对巴士敏感!

and so the stupid 敏感thing became our theme for the day. HAHA.

reached home and went to cook noodles while some useless pig went to use the comp. tsk. oh yeah then dugged out all our old postcards with all the retarded songs we used to write for our rippables, like hot spicy smelly twig! waaaah, seriously miss those days, when we were much more creative and had such an ability to find words that rhyme. HAHA, bet i can't do the same now. but what i pity we still can't figure out the name for the guy who

wants to date pimpim. D:

after many shots of camwhoring, kq continued using the comp while i read my book but i was too sleepy so i fell asleep on my bed, and i didn't realise that actually my bed is really comfy when the aircon is on. hah. slept in a pretty unglam manner and just had to get caught on camera by kq but heck lah, i actually look okay in the photo cos my face can't be seen anyway.

slept for abt an hour, woke up and just daydreamt on my bed, while in between talking to kq abt breakup seasons and stupid smses that she thought were from someone suspicious. haha.

oh yes, when i sent her off at the bus stop, on the way while walking there we met this dead cockroach, okay fine, we saw one. and kq got all scared over it, so i told her just think of it as G_ _ _ _.

then i said that means equals to three versions leh, mr woodcutter, mr R and mr friend's brother. HAHA. wahlao to think i could even come up with mr woodcutter, because of the fact that he's willing to 放弃整个树林for a tree. but only to end up chopping down that tree. HAHA. silly! reminds me of little red riding hood! haha, kq you can be the grandma that mr woodcutter comes dashing in to save lah. tall dark and handsome! :D haha, we are damn retarded and looks like after all, we can be still be pretty creative even after a year of not writing songs.

alright, photos!

we are glowing with happiness, although you can't see our faces. :D

love kq's expression here, she looks like she just got relieved of constipation. just like ms constipated mynah! HAHA. oh yah after taking many photos of ourselves blocking the light as the above photo showed, it finally dawned (no pun intended) upon us to turn around and let the light shine on our faces so it won't be so dark. haha, sillllly!

i look so happy to be imitating HOT. :DDD

ripper love! <3.

yay love my ripper. <3

tomorrow, vjclique outing! :D

YAY. i can't wait. love post-promos period like crazy! (eh kq, ppp, alliteration!)

2008-09-29T11:22:00.013+08:00

"our time of sitting together is coming to an end"
-quote a onceuponatime dear friend. (:

Still want you to know that He loves you.
I may not have reached you but i hope someone will later in life. That thought is enough to make me happy.

2008-09-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

Dear God, please keep 阿公safe tonight, tomorrow and forever more.
May he have a good night's sleep so that he can wake up tomorrow and feel strengthened by You.

Dear God please keep 阿Ma strong. Sustain her so that she can be a pillar of strength to 阿公. Surround her with your love so that she'll safely ride out the storm.

Dear God please keep Daddy strong as well. May your wisdom and grace blanket him every morning. Boost his immunity so he'll not crumble even in times like this.

Dear God, please bless my Aunties too, may they feel your love and mercy. Provide them with sustenance so that they can be strong for both 阿公and 阿Ma.

Dear God, please help me to be more loving and understanding during this period. Teach me to be humble and to be as supporting as all of the above people need me to be.

Dear God, please give us all eagles' wings so that we may soar above the storm, know that you are King over the flood, be still and know that you are God.

Thank you Jesus.

2008-09-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

can't resist switching on the computer just to come online and blog and talk to friends.
its the simplest of all things that God blesses me with that keeps me going.

just 15 minutes of talking to jiani made me smile!
haha laughed so much because of her stupid guy from malaysia tag and all the winks we spammed each other with!
jiani's massively good fun to be with. HAHA.

i had so much to blog about until i talked to her and now i can't remember a thing. oh well, thats good. won't waste time here.

yikes, its five minutes past 10, i need to head back to ze books.

one more week to liberation.
-slips onto eagles' wings and flies away.

2008-09-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

299th post. i like that number.

okay this might be a long post cos i don't think I'll be blogging anymore till after promos which is only in about less than 2 weeks time.
oh yes before that i apologise for the weird thing that happens every time you scroll to read the posts. i have no idea why it disappears. hmm.

anyway besides being an ultramugger these few days, I've been giving a lot of thought about my relationships. With God, and with others.
I think my focus on relationships have all gone haywire. Today's sermon, although was on husbands and wives on the book of Ephesians, i believe it spoke to me; not that i intend to get married now; but what i mean is that God somehow used this i thought was totally irrelevant sermon to speak to me about my relationships.

Love is a choice,

I have probably romanticised love a little too much, when actually the basics of all love begins with God, and I have sorely failed to see that point. God's love is unconditional but Man's love, no matter what, at some point in time will still face challenges that can threaten it. That's why I believe God's love is so powerful, the very fact that its poured out on the cross for all to see has demonstrated the fact that He loves us so much. We don't deserve such love for we are sinners but God still loves us.

I have learnt to realign my focus on relationships. To establish good relationships, first honour God and then he'll honour them. I remember reading in Joshua Harris' book that the very simple underlying secret of his steadfast relationships is that he honours God first. Put God first. How simple.

But as simple as it sounds, we all still fail to do that because we don't always walk on the right path. Temptations always lure us to evil and lead us away from God. I admit I've been there done that. But today's sermon served as a loving reminder from God, nudging me back to His right path once more. Hopefully I can continue to keep the faith and run the race and I will stop romanticising the ordinary. Perhaps it is still alright to think fancy, but ultimately, honour will be my focus. Honour Him.

not a feeling. ♥

You are stronger
You are stronger
Sin is broken
You have saved me
It is written Christ is risen
Jesus You are Lord of all

2008-09-07T18:10:00.002+08:00

holidays has come and gone!

i don't like holidays in jc, they seem to be ultra-mugging time.

and i believe this will continue until a's are over. )):

anyway, at least for the past one week i took some breathers. but of course, i'm glad i did manage to study. :D

yesterday went to sit on the singapore flyer with my relatives cos there was some teachers' day promotion so mummy and jiefaith went to sit and so i just tagged along. haha.

i don't think it was anything fantastic nor really boring, just an experience that i most likely won't want to go through again.

ykw, sometimes i wonder is it they make it so expensive so that people will talk good about it after they finish the ride even though they didn't really enjoy it.

otherwise they'll get a told-you-so kind of reaction from they cynics aye.

anyway, moving on, went to eat at inle myanmar restaurant. it was pretty nice, with a contemporary setting. and it was so cool to see ahma communicating with the waiters in genuine, true burmese! haha, i didn't even know she used to take higher burmese back in school. smart ayes.

oh yah and we were talking about saryeepoh and her stories and then i realised i really miss her! it hasn't even been a year since we last visited her but i already miss her the old-granny-ness bits about her. wish i could go back to hk to see her. D:

alrights, photos: (not much though. heh.)

2008-08-31T20:22:00.006+08:00

friday was teachers' day! or rather, tomorrow is, but anyway, had fun in school doing photog duty but didn't really manage to hang around my class' table to eat prata. HAHA.

school celebration wasn't really interesting, just loads of videos after videos. went back to cedar quickly so as to meet ex-classmates from 4Z! thethirtyofus. :DD met quite a lot of exclassmates, as you can see below. oh yes and i received lots of comments! haha, okay its a good change i suppose.

after that, went off to meet kq and we went to bugis to eat. charu joined shortly after and we had fun catching up on each other, like charu's many lovers- weel, peel, bill, meel! and my stupid housefly nose-digger story and kaiqi's new RAY of sunshine in her school! HAHA.

yupp, oh and np-taking was extreme madness, i was so amused by the stupid things they had to design (even got some buddha's head - to replace charu's face!) i kept 'tok-tok-toking' on the stupid screen with the pen! omg hilarious.

after that went shopping and saw this top i liked but it was a little out of my budget for that day. but i promise after promos i'll get it. heh.

went home around 6plus and went for churchwide prayer meeting and it was a really nice time of praying together as a family, i really liked it.

after the meeting went to bedok for suppper! :D

haven't been there for a long while so it was nice to be back there, except for some stray cat that was pretty annoying.

okay, i should really get down to serious serious deep earth mugging. else, i know i'll regret bigtime again. ):

2008-08-27T22:24:00.010+08:00

HBTM. :D

haven't been blogging for a long time so anyway yesterday cihui, lynette and jiani celebrated my birthday for me in school! and they bought yummy yummy mango cake, even though it was hard to eat it cos it was all squashy by the time i took my share.

(fyi that's cihui on the left and jialin on the right. haha.)
(credits to sean for the photo.)

and their presents were lets say, interesting. lynette was really hilarious with that cd cover made me laugh so badly at the hideous monster on the cover. and jiani used the photo you see at the top of this page to make me a wonderful card! and ofcourse cihui's bottle of mustard which i just opened today to make myself a subway of my own. :D

and of course the lovely turquoise shirt that matches my room. haha.

really, thank you so much, love you all loaddddds! <333!

of course thanks for everyone else's birthday wishes, for all those people whom i never knew would remember! :D

i can never stop thanking, can i!

but ultimately, i thank my God, for sustaining all the 17 years of my life, with his almighty grace, mercy and love.

okay off to sleep, can't wait for friday, off to cedar to meet ex-classmates and media gang once moreee! :D

okaaay, i think i'm getting high. HAHA.

2008-08-17T17:39:00.001+08:00

stupid chaikaiqi!

this post is for you.
nah, i blogged.
HAHA.

stupid changjoylee, your tags don't make sense!

2008-08-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

promos are coming coming coming!
everyone's starting to feel the pressure, the heat and the reigning desire to do well.
well of course everyone includes me but i'll just give my best shot and try to be discipline and study harddd. :D

i miss moments with my family, my extended family, the gatherings and the nonsense and the FOOD!
i love gatherings especially if they are with family members.
i can't wait for the next one already even though i don't know when it is going to be. hopefully it'll be soon but anyway i know i can always look forward to next year's cny. wahahah. i think far.

2008-08-01T18:33:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder if i should be saddened or angry at the students at interact. i should feel sad for those who are bullied by others and yet keep such a happy smiling face.
most of the time, the ones who are bullied are the ones who are the happiest lot. how tiring it must be to make an effort all the time.

this week has gone from bad to good all in the course of one night. i'm tired outside but inside i rejoice because God has been so good.
this is what flying on eagles' wings must feel like.

and I will bring praise, i will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
i will rejoice, i will declare
God is my victory and He is here.

tomorrow i'm going to meet leerylee and kaiqichai! yay, we're going to festival of praise together. cihui went today so in a way she pangsehed me but because i'm going tomorrow, i kind of pangsehed her too. hah!

oh well, been two years since i've gone to festival of praise, and i loved the last time i went. :D God is so good, he has provided me with tickets, he must have known how much i wanted to go.

oh yeah, happy august! (according to lynette. :D)

2008-07-25T20:54:00.001+08:00

Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. 2 Corinthians 4:16

Heal my heart and make it clean.

Open up my eyes to the things unseen.

Show me how to love like you have loved me.

Break my heart from what breaks yours.

Everything I am for your kingdoms cause.

As I walk from earth to Eternity.

according to daddy, the ligament in my wrist is probably inflamed, and that is making me very annoyed so i hope that it'll heal soon cos i waaaant my cookies.

i've been very tired these few weeks in school, but i must say i'm happy with what i'm studying. recently i heard about overseas trips for cip and i suddenly remember missions to india at the end of the year. i wanted to go, but i know Jesus says i'm not ready to go yet, so he refrained me from going. i love my absolute trust in him.

i love the thought that no other love than my love for Him can be more profound, more deep, more heart-wrenching, more crazy, more joyous, more testing.

I'll always love Him. No one makes me happier anymore than you do.

2008-07-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

Wait a minute, why am i losing focus of my God, the Mighty One?
Therefore, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and constraints, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

2008-07-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

everyone has something tangible to love.
i have nothing.
i only have my dreams and a heart that stabbingly hurts because
i haven't found a tangible to love yet.

okay i have nothing much to blog about now, just feeling a little angsty, as cihui always says i am. tomorrow, will be a happier day. i will make myself happier. a promise i shall make to myself.

2008-07-04T20:53:00.002+08:00

waah, for some reasons.

1. i haven't been blogging for a week so i shall make some updates here before my blog starts rotting again when the rate of jclife begins to increase exponentially again.

2. promos are starting in 10 weeks time, and i thought i only finished myes yesterday. i was so sure i did.

3. i haven't had time to catch up with cedar friends, even though i only met kq for such a short time ytd, i'm really sorry. i miss joy, i haven't talked to her in lightyears and i'm sure she has loads of stories to tell.

4. i haven't been on msn for days even after myes cos i guess i'm too busy doing something else other than msn, hahah, and people are beginning to scold me for not coming online anymore. wahaha.

5. i have got a pretty horrifying econs tutor. i feel like i'm back on animal farm. -.-

6. i need to start clearing my table before mugging period #2 for promos begins very very soon. ):

7. okay, i can't bear the thought of promos approaching.

8. got back maths and chem results this week, and i'm really at a lost for words. i've been asking myself alot of questions and i really really hope Jesus will help me make right choices and live right.

lets move on to happier things.

1. actually at this moment i can't really think of much.
2. i know a lot of stuff went on last week, but a pity its all a little too late to write it all down.
3. i shall stop cause the more i write, the more this post will sound depressing.

2008-06-28T20:46:00.003+08:00

no matter how young or how old, once you're there, you're there
and we'll all be looking for a little something that'll warm our hearts
in the darkest of times.

i love sitting on my bed, typing into the laptop with my bedroom window wide open with an ultra sense of freedom. HAH.

2008-06-27T09:44:00.003+08:00

Thank you Jesus, for your sustenance and your grace and your mercy and the power of your love for the past four days.

How could I live without you.

Hold me close, let Your love surround me,
Bring me near, draw me to Your sight.
And as I wait, I'll rise up like the eagles,
And I will soar with You,
Your Spirit leads me on,
by the power of Your love.

the very song that sustained me.

2008-06-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

oh, the things i'll do to make myself happy.
think more.

hahah, midyears in 2 days time, can't believe i've got so far, thought i would have died halfway while memorising all those facts about the synapse, ATP, summation, enthalpy, elasticity, and the list goes on and on and on.

yesterday night mum asked me why it seemed like as if jc exams were so much more tough than olevels and only after she said i kind of realised it was true, i think i'm studying even harder than olevels because of the immense amount of work to memorise. go figure.
oh yeah, but not to forget jf said that uni would be tons tons worse.
haha, okay halt, i shall wait another 2 years before i start thinking about that. :/

anyway this week will surely fly fly fly past quickly so that i can finally have some guiltfree enjoyment by watching my beloved doctor on telly. (:

2008-06-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun fun fun! (:
studied a little in the morning and then out with my family to eat lunch at this nice dimsum restaurant! haha, pretty seaview and nice food.

came home or rather, was on the way home when got a call from f and turns out she and her ever-hungry stomach wanted to grab a bite. so came home grabbed some gang stuff and then went out to meet her at tanah merah and went to dhoby together.
had a drink while she ate lunch at mwl and had a good talk again, haiyah plans for the future indeed.

met dear charu afterwards and she was silly! i told her to wait at the first floor for me cos i'll come down and then she came up to the 4th floor and somemore can say she's at the 3rd floor. hahaha. silly her. oh yeah and she can turn to ther left when i asked her to turn to her right. omg, i suddenly remember the lion witch and the wardrobe and our little narnia in the comp lab. hahahah. (x

then went to meet safiah who was so fascinated with charu's african braids and my american straightened hair. haha silly girl and oh yeah i was so happy cos i managed to meet logggggy dear too! omg, i miss her madly, i'll never forget our days as tablepartners and the tuition/eating lessons at her house.

then the rest came and charu and i shooed them off with the its a vegetarian thing to get cake for them but failed miserably when trying to light the candles because of the stupid impending doom of the drums and the terrible wind at fc. but no matter, we managed to pull off the surprise.
oh yeah, and we were terribly annoyed carrefour didn't sell lighters/matches in their huge huge store because we were running from 1st floor to basement to 1st floor to basement a million times just to get the cake and the lighters. so dumb!
anyway by the time we reached fc, we were both drenched in sweat and so terribly tired. but i think it was all worth it for the 3 lovely birthday girls. :D

gossiped and camwhored at fc and oh yeah not forgetting feasting on tarts, cakes, subway and dried mangoes! (joy's homebrand somemore.)
caught up with everyone's lives, i realised everyone were in different schools, coolios. (:
we had such different stories and our lives after cedar were certainly interesting ayes.

alrighties, enough of me rants, time for photos photos. (:

2008-06-11T14:14:00.002+08:00

you're a long long way from home, aren't you?

doctor who, is my love. :D
I WANT SEASON THREE AND FOUR NOWWWW.

2008-06-08T22:02:00.001+08:00

wthhhhhhh, like seriously.
your shame, where art thou.

we've only got four minutes to save the world.

2008-06-03T10:43:00.000+08:00

restart my computer just to say this.

make me miserable.

2008-06-02T12:05:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it's strange what people find pleasing
A nose is a nose stuffed up or runny
Sneezing's no fun but sometimes it's funny
Everyone sniffles and sneezes and blows
It's a fact of life for we all have a nose!
Now If you must sneeze use a tissue and please
Cover your nose so I don't catch your sneeze!

2008-05-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

i'll sing a secret song for you when the clock strikes twelve.
happy birthday. (:

just came back about an hour or so
from dinner with jf and had a fabulous time once again eating and chatting.
now that i'm over and done with secondary school, its cool talking to her about what happens in sec sch and stuff. our stories are hilarious indeed.
you wouldn't believe that we went to eighteenchefs again.
i think the waiter recognised me cos he gave me that whyareyouhereagain kind of look. heck. :D
HAHA, i simply love that place, one day i shall officially declare it my favourite hangout in the east to eat and and to catch up with people. its such a nice little cafe tucked in the corner of eastpoint, yet so conveniently near the mrt.
thanks cihui and gang, once again for introducing me to that place.

i have not left the artsyfartsy side of me behing in sec4.
i can feel it and i know that it'll resurface one day.
if only but one day. :D

2008-05-25T12:34:00.000+08:00

had an interesting past week.
lets recount what i did.

monday was a holiday
tuesday was interact installation
wednesday was soccerboys finals match support
thursday was lets-anticipate-fullday day.
and a day that was an emotional rollercoaster.
as to why it was, it is such a long and boring story you wouldn't want to know, really.
friday, fullday! :D

okay, lets talk about friday, heh.
announced that it was fullday after a 40min long assembly -.-
and celebrated jialin's birthday rather hurriedly and said goodbye to mr ng, which happened to be his last day in vj. how sad, he was one of the teachers i felt was the most similar to what we had in cedar, not the usual jc teacher, who really, is rather scary. ):

left with cihui and lynette to get some farewell stuff from parkway for mr ng.
reached parkway damn early, at around 9? haha, so guess what, we had another 2 more hours before the shops opened.
sat around and walked from shop to shop, buying random stuff in coldstorage.
finally when the shops opened went to get our gifts, and left with cihui to give the stuff to mr ng.

left vj and then took a bus to ps (yet again) to shop! i wanted to get the cottonon jacket but i think they're totally out of stock alr, in every cottonon shop, so i didn't manage to buy any. and their bottoms were either too small or too big, so didn't get any either.

shopped around for shoes but didn't find anything nice so in the end we just gave up and went to eat. funny thing was that we didn't even feel hungry even though we didn't have lunch and by the time we sat down to eat it was already 3plus. shopping makes us full indeed.

shopped around even more after that and bought some rather interesting but stupid things from daiso, haha, private joke.
returned home around 7, feeling rather happy with the stuff i bought and the company of cihui(:

saturday met cihui yet again at tampines mrt for fusionrally'08 and it was an eyeopener because the way it was conducted was really different from riverlife or any other churches. the speaker glenn lim was really good, and his testimony was such a miracle, to God be all the glory.
went to eighteenchefs with her church friends to eat dinner/supper and enjoyed the food and company alot. (:

i'm really happy i went and be more exposed to other christian communities.
now, i'm really considering switching churches, but ultimately, i still have to listen to what God has to say and what his plan for me is.
i will still honour his decision cos it must be the best for me.

don't know what plans i have for today, probably going out with jf/jn later but i really am not sure.
anyway, i want to thank God alot for providing me with such great classmates and especially my fellow sister, cihui.
thank you Jesus.

2008-05-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

you know how it feels like to hold a pen and tremble
because you are at a loss for words?
i don't know how to start.
why do i get this feeling it'll turn into another silent war.

anyways, school ended at 12.45 today, and went out with tandas gang, eunice and linwei and the rest of my clique except jiani to thaipan to eat lunch.
convinced cihui to become a vegetarian temporarily by saying that becoming one would aid her bowel movements. HAHA.

rushed back to school and caught the bus to jalanbesar to watch soccer boys play finals against mj. saw safiah and another primary school classmate but i doubt she recognised me so anyway, it was really hot at the stadium so our energy was gone faster than the previous time the girls played.

but, no matter, i think the soccer boys still did a very good job and deserve every cheer and applause screamed, shouted, and clapped during and after the game. the victorian spirit can act as a buoy at all times. (:

cihui said maybe because anders was playing, so thats why we felt extra sad when they didn't bring the final glory home, but its alright i think he put in so much effort, our class ought to do something to encourage him. if we can do it for the performing arts people, why not the sports people in our class? (:

okay enough said, today felt very real, but it was also heartwarming to see how our school can be so supportive even in the most down of moments.

tomorrow will never turn out like i want it to be but its also 'its okay'.
everything happens according to God's plan and i know that its important to trust Him.
so, although i cannot be there, i want _ to know i'll support _ in every way.

so cheers, and be happy.

2008-05-20T20:51:00.002+08:00

weirdly i didn't feel much at first, but the more i thought about it on the bus, on the walk home, the more bitter i felt about it.
but someone i saw as i walked home kind of made my day.
i'm a typical dreamer.

how could i be so stupid, obviously things wouldn't work my way yet again.
this week of course wouldn't be a week i'll be loving.
this week is probably going to be the most horrible end to my school term.
i can't believe i had been so naive.

all the way to delta for nothing.
i won't get to see number ten anymore.
really, i couldn't be happier.

2008-05-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

wahhh, i'm really going to love last week and this week.
got to admit, they're probably the best weeks i ever had in the history of starting this year.

thursday, came home early to do pw. :D
but gave up halfway and met jf downstairs to grab a bite and talked about random stuff. came back home and continued pw while she took a catnap on my bed. haha, my bed is so comforting isn't it. (:

friday, wanted to go delta before hand and meet kq there.
was rather cranky at first for all the right reasons but in the end, took a train down to outram/opium park and met here there directly :D
took a cab to delta when we didn't even know it was merely 5 minutes walk away. haha. -.-
reached and went to support sa hockey boys, and for certain reasons, kq was screaming her head off and swooning like she's going to faint any moment. indeed, it'll be the most memorable match ever for her i bet.
HAHAHA.

saturday kind of rotted at home and tried to study. oh actually, i can't really recall what i did. :/

anyway, sunday! went shopping with mummy dearest and bought quite a lot of stuff. heh, but i'm so happy with my 'loot'. (:

alrights, time to sleep and time to look forward to this coming week, which is going to be just as exciting! :D too lazy to post photos now, oh wells perhaps the next post.

2008-05-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

haha, this is what i call rarity.

anyway, went for cedar connect on friday and it was rather boring, save for the other stupid things that happen; ahem greetings ahem waves and excuses.

got to catch up with people i haven't met in a long time like safiah and charu and of course dearest joy and kq! :D

aww, i just simply miss cedar days, look at the nostalgic posts kq and i posted on larry blog and you'll understand how we feel!

haha anyway, that night was THE night to remember really, because of extremely embarassing things that happened that are forbidden to be mentioned. hahaha, i'll never forget that evening.

anyways, this week seems like an extremely week for me (:

tuesday, don't think there's anything though.

wednesday, soccer match?

thursday, bio spa and outing with jf!

friday, outing with kq!. :D

YAY.

alright, should be off soon. goodnights! (:

2008-05-07T20:26:00.001+08:00

it'll be lie to say i'm too stressed out about jc life.
this will never happen because i have Him.

i believe my walk with Him has grown ever since that fateful night and i'm so thankful because i know that without Him, i'll never be able to survive all that i'm going through right now.
i know He'll always have a plan for me.

i'm different now.

imust really thank Him for leading me to cihui, my dear sister-in-christ in school, knowing that together, he'll build us up, using each of us to strengthen one another and as a constant reminder to honour Him in every little thing we do.

//but the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
the Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid."
and the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
out of all the voices calling out to me
i will choose to listen and believe The Voice of Truth

chemistry spa on friday,
bio eassesment to complete.
and yes, He will lead me through.

2008-04-28T19:58:00.001+08:00

kind of realised that the past 3 posts were exactly a week apart, all on sunday.

sigh, i've been so busy i have no time to go out with the people i love the most alr. ): where are my outings with jiefaith and the larry gang. roars, give them all back to me.

kaiqi and joy have been complaining how i have become the busiest among the three of us, until i can't even find a free day to go out with them. i'm so sorry guys, i really want to go out too, just- ): i feel ultra baddd.

oh yeahhh i haven't really gotten over the loss of my pencil case even though it has been weeks. don't really think i'll get it back anymore anyway. whoever took it, may his heart be convicted by Jesus so he'll return it. all myyyy pens and my new caseeee. ):

no one really seems to be of any help.

well, at least i know i can still thank God for one thing, and that is pw. :D

i know he has helped us, somehow, someway.

okay i should really be off to do econs essay. ]:

//say it again for me

cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who

blows your mind; say it again for me

it's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love.

2008-04-27T17:02:00.001+08:00

oh dear, what am i doing here when i should be studying and catching up with lectures??

i miss everyone i had fun with last year.
5months into 2008 and you still can't let go of 2007.
what were you thinking!

2008-04-20T19:44:00.001+08:00

help, i've been too tired for too long.

2008-04-13T19:47:00.001+08:00

some people really do get all the fun in the world.
i don't really want to look for fun anymore.
i don't believe there is anything fun for me to do.
my only goal now is to be free.

yay, i have a secret pampering that i shall not reveal until
i really get my hands on it.
now that shall be something to make my day.

alright, shall blog about my life so far.
celebrated jiani's 17th birthday on monday,
no element of surprise, so sorry jiani, but no matter what, the three of us will always support whatever your ultimate decision may be. :D
after school, went out with larry gang, but i still felt something was amiss.
i was right.

tuesday and wednesday, nothing much i think, not that i can remember.
thursday met jie faith at our favourite haunt, the airport, and we talked and talked and talked. surprisingly, haha even though we met barely a week ago, we had so much to talk about. i can't wait to grow up and make all our plans trueeee. (:

friday, went for interact. worried ourselves when we saw no one there. achieved something at tkps, because i helped someone finish his homework, yay. left quickly after that with cihui and made our way to expo for planteshakers' concert. waited for an extremely long time, almost an hour plus plus, but it was all worth it cos i really enjoyed the songs they played. ohyeahhh.

okayys, off to eat dinner.
till next time, -bye world.

so little miss lucky got what she wanted,
everything, everything she asked for.

2008-03-31T11:14:00.001+08:00

who wouldn't miss cedar?
i miss the teachers and the silly photog sessions we used to have.
don't really think jc will ever hold the same type of memories.
maybe it'll be better, maybe it'll be worse, but for sure i know it'll never be the same.

hahahah, i'm only half as happy that i can return to cedar (the fake one) this week. :D

oh and i'm only too happy to realise that a new place to take photos is less than a minute's walk away from my house. yay.

joy is finally unemployed, but the problem is kq and i are getting busier and busier in school. so it seems like the tables have turned this time, making it even more impossible for us to meet up again. ):
i know term 2 has barely started, but i already can't wait for june holidays to be here. even though it means midyears will be round the corner. ohwhy.

maybe i should look forward to the december holidays alr. all i asked for was a getaway, a holiday and a little time off to play.

actually i can play if i wanted to, but ykw, conscience always had this nasty habit of pricking at you.
for now, all i can indulge in is a little comfort from my deliciously-tempting novel, slay it with flowers.

so i'll be off to read it. :D

2008-03-25T21:54:00.004+08:00

chuiwai and i, our yellow-fellow rocfish experience. :D

full week this week, i don't likeeeeeee. :/

2008-03-20T23:51:00.006+08:00

this week was just as i expected, so i'm a happy girl this week. :D

monday, maths test, don't know if i can do well, oh wells, i just have to wait for the results. i'm entrusting it to Him.

tuesday, celebrated lynette's birthday in school. someone took photos but def not jiani, so i can't post any. ):

wednesday, arts day, went to sinema old school cos that was what we signed up for. watched some b&w movie that at first had everyone snoring, but ended up to be such a spastic movie, that had me laughing so badly.

after that we split up, lynette and cihui went home, while i went to airport with jiani for jts. met up with our class, lynette and the senior class.
went to breeks to eat, and all i could eat was veges and potatoes! ): i was so tempeted looking at others' eating meat! oh wells, i still resisted. haha.

played zhongjimima and our whole row kept internally saboing each other. honestly, i didn't sabotage calvin and jiarong on purpose! HAHA. finally when we managed to catch lynette, our row was rejoicing. haha, this half of s39 is silly. (x

sent zaneta and althea off to barcelona after leaving breeks and took an enormous group shot, ahaha including the seniors. hope they have fun there!
went to eat tauhuay after that cos i was seriously hungry after not eating much. :/ watched the guys camwhore after a while then left the airport, and reached home at 11.30 (?!) with a stomachache. ):

alrights, time for photos! (:

today, fullday so i went to pick kq up from school! tried walking to sa's main gate by following people, ahaha but she told me not to but instead just meet her at ppmacs, which i agreed is much much better. :D

went to her house and swoped uniforms! haha, i think we look nice in each other's uniforms. anyway, wanted to watch sky of love but failed cos shaw doesn't screen it. i wanted to watch HORTON HEARS A WHO! oh my i think he's just got to be the cutest elephant alive. (: anyway went to macs and talked about you know whos again. HAH. went back to her house and laughed at certain nightdresses and big shirts. (x

left for tampines and split ways there where kq went to look for her you know who, while i went home. and to think it was only 7pm! i rarely come home so early when i'm out. haha, even my dad was surprised.

anyway, tmr's good friday, yays! rocfish' coming down and i'm excited! :D

2008-03-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

faints. how could someone so easily flew to there and back again.

looking at a certain someone's photos makes me all the more determined to get a slr when i get some real cash.
hahaha, don't worry, won't go to the extend of grabbing it illegally, though i have to admit, i want to take closeup shots really realllyyy badly. :/

i miss the cedar media sessions with the gang so badly; i haven't seen anyone apart from joy and kq from the gang since last christmas.
waaah, i want to have a day of serious fun some time soon. i had enough of studying for today's maths test. )):

thankfully, we have a long weekend coming up. yayys, couldn't be more happy. hopefully i won't spend it on tutorials or staring at lecture notes again. i need a fresh breath of air, a break from all those tutorials.

right, go on and call me mugger, i know how everyone spent their march holidays catching up with friends and simply having fun. but no, i didn't achieve any catching up that was originally planned, that's why i hope this weekend or this week, i can do something that'll make me satisfied and happy.

okay scratch all of the above, i think all i need now is a little good night laughter with kq on the phone.
i shall do just that, tomorrow.

goodnight myworld.

2008-03-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

UNFAAAIRRRRRR. ):
i protest.

2008-03-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

but most of all, it's built to last.

nothing really interesting this week.
my march holidays are just so terribly boring.
tomorrow's media outing ended poofingly again. we never do learn from our mistakes ayes.

when you get around this age, you start to think much about -ahem.
because the people around you are getting sucked into the exact same whirlpool,
i think things are going to get exciting, and overwhelming at the same time.
some are already leaving me breathless and torn :/

not very likely of me to be emotional while blogging,
but hey, it's never too late to do so.

cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like it should
but most of all, most of all, it's built to last.

2008-03-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

how could it be that i already miss you when it has only been for such a short time.
took that number today and thought maybe i could catch a glimpse, but it was always to no avail.
never mind, i'm thankful enough.
maybe i need a little shove to get me out into the spotlight.

why oh why is so hard to get the media gang people to meet up.
anyone who tries to initiate anything will def have a hair-pulling time trying to fix a date that suits everyone. hell, jc life just practically sucks up all your time, leaving with you n.o.t.h.i.n.g ):

except for a certain two people luh, NJ- NO JC. ：/
haha, okay fine, i know i was being lame when i made that up.

ayyyes, i'm getting sleepy and i really should be getting up early tomorrow so i can start catching up on chem and maths and bio and econs. oh wells, everything i suppose. :X

2008-03-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

when the world swirls with naysayers
broken wings and torn pages
the road ahead
swimming in my tears
you know i need it
scars make us stronger for life

i'm going to be af even though i may not seem like it.
i will not lose touch with literature.

sigh, just want to talk to jf like right now in person. ): mm, not msn.